Deformed Paopu

OMG NOSE BLEED!!!!

2006-01-09T16:29:00.000-08:00

Dani-sama had to go to the hospital today because of a nose bleed. I was crying all during robotics, it was so sad. I felt so bad; I love my Dani-sama. Everyone was like "It's okay." and "I'm sure she's fine." and I just wanted to yell at them! You don't know how it feels! I love her so much I would worry if she just got a paper cut!!!! *yayness* Just found out she is fine!!! ^_^

Okay, Normal post-ness now. Drama over.

Riku sighed, angry that the words he was trying to say wouldn't come out. "Look... Sora...she..." He huffed, turning from his place at the window to Sora and the sleeping Paopu. "I don't really know what happened that day." He walked away from the window a bit, to the table in the middle of the room and leaned on it. He shrugged, "All I know is I wanted you to know how much I cared for you," He motioned to Paopu, "and she appeared."
There was an akward silence. "...Riku. What are you saying?"

Randomness from my new Kingdom Hearts story. This bit was inspired by the Kingdom Hearts 2 theme song. (Gosh I can't wait!) Yes, it's RikuxSora. I don't care what you say. That is a fucking OTP, okay!!! Screw Kairi, lol. I am actually making Kairi somewhat of a bad guy in this particular story. I really do think that the two belong together *cuddles RikuxSora plushie* Yayness!

I've got to update the side panel soon with all the links and shit. God... *screams* after that I am gonna go lay down. I am quite tired actually. *sigh*

sigh ... sigh

2006-01-08T18:17:00.000-08:00

Paopu fruit anyone? Lol, I've been in a bit of a Kingdom Hearts mood lately and I REALLY want to start an rp with someone, but I don't know who to start it with. I don't think Candy likes it (nor is she on), Wade probably won'yt do it. *sigh* I've also been in a Hunted mood, but Wade doesn't want to rp tonight. It's also been over an hour since he said he'd get on. ...surprise, he hasn't. Dani-sama says she wants to pay me for something for DITR, but I probably won't take the money. *laugh* I just don't want to do it for money; I'll do it free. *sigh* I'm thinking about writing another story (that will not get past chapter one) with RikuxSora and an OC, but I don't know if I'll ever get around to it. *sigh* I'm GOING to change this layout.... TONIGHT. Not even joking. I am sick of it. Absolutely SICK. Gah, it makes me want to beat something with a stick. *beats something with a stick* I feel better now. I just realized I haven't hit enter ONCE in this entire post. No one will read it anyways, so nah... *sigh* I'll edit this post later.

[edit] See, I didn't lie. Here's my new layout, featuring Paopu, from my new Kingdom Hearts fanfiction. [/edit]

Nightmares

2005-12-31T09:55:00.001-08:00

I hate them. I positively hate them. I had one last night where Wade was moving to Indiana (don't ask me where I got that from!); He told me on my birthday and then he was already on the airplane on our anniversary. Something happened and his parents became cool (that's how I knew it was a dream) and let him dye his hair black and buy all those clothes he wanted. Then Chandra called me and was like, "Cat, I don't want you to find this out from anyone else, but Wade is cheating on you." I didn't want to believe it...but sure enough, he called me a few days later, "This just isn't working out..." I cna remember I started cutting and they were thinking about sending me back to Mountain View. Then he came down to visit... I don't know what happened next, I just happened to meet him at the Deep. He was happy without me, so I ended it. It being my life, of course.
I don't know, dreams like that make me wish that sleep didn't happen all that often, no?

Well, I've updated a lot and not put up here what I got for Christmas! *slaps hand* Bad me! Let's see: I got an mp3 player, a cd player for my car, a bracelet, and the Kingdom Hearts soundtrack from my parents; from everyone else I got: clothes, steering wheel cover (that doesn't fit), a cd holder for the little flap that keeps out the light (O_o can't remember the name of it), make-up, and a scarf. I really didn't get anything I wantedexcept the mp3 player, but the car cd player is a VERY pleasent surprise. Mom is gonna help me pimp out my ride, lol, and buy new stuff for it. I can't wait... I think we found everything I need at the Hampton Cove Wal*Mart.
I'm trying to think of other stuff that haas happened to me. Nothing really has, but oh well. Oh! I got my new photo account up on d.art. I still need an id and an avatar, but it's ~itsadruidthing.
I got sick last night and Wade wants me to come to Huntsville with him today. I don't know if I can make it...;_; I don't feel very well. I think I'm gonna drop over dead. X_x
Does the layout look too cluttered to you? I dunno...And I'm working on Evie's new layout, too, so this may not change anytime soon.
I guess I'm gonna end this with some great and inspiring lyrics. I'll post later tonight with my New Year's resolutions. (That'll make people laugh.) Bold are the lyrics I think remind me of myself.

2 AM and she calls me cause I'm still awake
Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?
I don't love him, winter just wasn't my season.
Yeah we walk through the doors so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize
Hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason.

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
and life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button, girl
So cradle your head in your hands.
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breathe, just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base of Fort Bliss
"Just a day," he said down to the flask in his fist
Ain't been sober since maybe October of last year
Here in town you can tell he's been down for awhile
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles
Wanna hold him maybe I'll just sing about it

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button, boys
so cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breath just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel
You shout cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made
You'll just make them again if you'll only try turnin' around

2 AM and I'm still awake writing this song
If I get it all down on paper it's no longer inside of me
Threatening the life it belongs to.
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary screamin' out aloud
And I know that you'll use them however you want to.

But you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand, yeah breathe
Just breathe, oh oh breathe, just breathe, oh breathe,
just breathe, oh breathe, just breathe

[EDIT] Here they are!
@ I promise to love those who love me back and hate those who hate me. I will not love someone who won't love me back.
@ I promise to loose weight. A lot of it. So I look nice.
@ I promise to find a job SOMEWHERE.
@ I promise to read more.
@ I promise to keep up this blog.

Hello darlings. It's me. Just a quick note about New Years. I lite a sparkler tonight. My first ever! ^_^ *ish so proud* Okay, that's all!

Kingdom Hearts Sprites

2005-12-26T21:39:00.000-08:00

Okay, my story is random, but five girls that are visiting Disney World stumble in on a secret room that only opens to the hearts of the purest maidens of heart. Lol, they just happen to be five girls I love and adore: Dani-sama, Jessi-chan, Roxy-sama, Elli-chan, and myself! ^_^ Lol, I got bored and made some sprites... Enjoy!

Groups:

Individual:
Me:
Dani:
Jess:
Elizabeth:
Roxy:
Unnamed Princess:

So what do you think? Yay, Nay? *shrugs*

Nother Post

2005-12-26T16:04:00.000-08:00

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v213/Pewen/randomland_blinkie_liebelied2.gif- for my lovely Jessi-chan! -

I have to keep working on the comments and the title stuff on the layout tonight. I just thought I'd put that up here to show it off. I'm spriting for a new Kingdom Hearts fanfiction of mine, feturing four girls who I love and adore. ...oh and me! ^_^ I'll update with them when I get done with them.

So yeah...

2005-12-23T10:24:00.000-08:00

I'm in the process of changing this layout to be the way I wanted it.

*sigh* Yes, Evie, I will change your layout. I only get comments when people want me to do something or they feel bad.

I'm working on Jessi-chan's layout still.... I hope I can get it fixed. *shakes head* My luck...

I Feel Better!

2005-12-22T12:52:00.000-08:00

Well, after my tantrum (and the one I threw after that one!) I am calm now. Sorry I haven't updated in a while! I really need to probably have a reminder as to when I need to update these things. *sigh* But the reason I don't update is because everyone gets comments but me, lol. Oh well...
In Gaia, I'm working up all my money so I can buy Wade's character some pants. LMAO, I mean, he has pants, I'm just buying better ones for him. Some baggy black ones, that I know he'll like. I am working on my outfit too, but I bought all green stuff and now I want to get all purple stuff because of Candy's RvB story. O_o I forgot about how influenced I am by stuff... lol, but I'll probably keep with the green, because my username is tallyss_strow, my druid in DnD. And Druids like green.... foresty.
Anyways, I joined and RPG guild based off of Naruto yaoi! ^^ I'm Kakashi and a new character named Keiu. Since I never really got my Naruto rpg off the ground, I just kinda switched Keiu into a boy and went with it. He has a crush on Naruto still, though. ^_^ *shrugs*
I'm probably gonna change this layout and give it to Wade. I'm forcing him to join. As a matter of fact, I am signing him up after I get done with this. ^^
I'm gonna go do that! BRB

...

2005-12-15T20:02:00.000-08:00

Forget it. Just forget it.

I wanna throw a tantrum and I will! stomps away

2005-12-15T12:22:00.000-08:00

Wade got my hopes up that I was gonna be able to see him today. I even asked him no more than thirty minutes before I left the school! So I wasted the gas to drive back to his house to see him, and he wasn't there. He wasn't there, he wasn't fucking there. It ruined my day completely... but guess where he is right now? Where he was then. I town with his sister and Jon, "...going to Huntsville." I threw a hissy-fit. I didn't even tell him I loved him - right now I don't think I do. I ran into the other room and cried while I listened to the MSI cd he burned me. "I'm sorry." He says. Damn you! You're not sorry. That word means nothing to you, does it? God, why did I fall in love with you??

Diamonds are forever, sparkling 'round my little finger, Unlike men, the diamonds linger,
Men are mere mortals who are not worth going to your grave for
I don't need love, for what good will love do me, Diamonds never lie to me, for when love's gone, they luster on...

It's just a little tantrum. I'll get over it, but right now I am really pissed off.

Diamonds are forever, they won't leave in the night
I've no fear that they might desert me.

[EDIT] Jess doesn't trust me anymore. No, rephrasing that, she trusts Evan more than me now. It hurts so bad... I want my blanket now. The one she made me... It hurts so bad. I would tell what she didn't tell me (and told Evan), but I don't think she really wants me to know. Evan and Jess are getting so close... it's Steph and Matt all over again. Both of them are slipping away from me, because my stupid personality. It hurts so much. Evan is my dearest friend and Jess... god, I LOVE her. I freaking love her. I am so tired of life right now...

New stuff by me:
Shop stuff:
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Christmas Break

2005-12-13T19:23:00.000-08:00

I've watched Jess sowing something for a little over half a week now and I never realized it was for me. Her and Jade made a blanket for me! I'm so flattered! ^_^ It is so pretty... I'll take a picture of it sometime.
I'm gonna edit this layout a bit here in a sec...
Oh, I joined Gaia. More on that later. I don't really feel like posting right now lol.

Christmas Presents for me

2005-12-11T17:58:00.000-08:00

Everyone keeps asking me what they can get me for Christmas... Here are a few things you people can get me (and my cat). Honestly, this is my christmas list!
Updates: 1

Me
Before someone throws a fit, there is a logical reason for wanting these outfits. I don't have a child - not planning on having one for a LONG while. But when I finally have a baby, these clothes will not be being made anymore! So, I want to get them now, so I will have them. I'll put them up somewhere, so yeah... you don't have to get them lol, just skip to the other stuff.
Future Jedi Master Infant Suit
Jedi in Training Pants Infant Suit
Chewbacca Infant Suit
Vader Infant Suit
Boba Fett Suit
Sith Happens Baby Suit
Jedi in Training Pants T-shirt
Vader Bib
Vader Baby Beanie
Now the stuff really for me (all t-shirts medium):
Emperor Palpatine T-Shirt
Sith Happens T-shirt
Star Wars Belt Buckle
Order 66 T-Shirt
Vader Socks
Naruto Lunchbox
Naruto Playing Cards
Trigun Beanie
Will Work For Anime T-shirt
Fruits Basket Wallscroll
Hellsing Wallscroll
Sakura T-shirt (lost the link, but it's from Hot Topic)
Naruto T-shirt
Naruto Headband, Kunai knife, and Shuriken set
Hellsing DvD collection
Alucard Ring
Hellsing Poster
CDs by these artists: Evanscence, Linkin Park, Rammstein, DJ Sammy, DJ Encore
Movies perferably on Dvd: Star Wars 1, 2, or 3, Without A Paddle, Moulin Rogue, Tenchi (any)
Mangas: Naruto (4-latest), Ouran Host Club (4 if out), Tokyo Boys and Girls (3 if out), Gravitation (1-whatever), Full Moon (1-whatever), Nana (1-whatever), Fruist Basket (5-whatever), Ultra Maniac (1-whatever), Godchild (1-whatever)

Snickerdoodle
Cat Bed - the black one
Cat Poncho
Cat Scarf - the navy one
Cat Sweater - the navy one
Cat Tuxedo
Cat Carrier
Diamond Cat Collar

Instead of posting again, I'll just edit this post for a while.

Long time no post!

2005-12-09T18:46:00.000-08:00

It's been a while since I've posted. So, yeah. I love this new layout. ^_^ I've been on a Hellsing trip for a while. I might as well get the idea out of my head here, before I lose it.
Let's see, it's about the seven holy portals that connect the next world with this one are opened and demons start infiltrating the human world. To keep chaos from happening, God sends his seven archangels (Uriel, Raphael, Raguel, Michael, Sariel, Gabriel, and Remiel) to Earth to ask the Vatican for help. Well, one thing leads to another and the Vatican asks the Hellsing Corp. for help and it becomes a very big fight. I'm designing the appearances of the archangels (not personalities) after friends of mine. I know it doesn't make since, since most of the names are male and they look femalish (sans Uriel and Remiel), but Angels are genderless, looking like males sometimes, woman the rest. They take on the appearence of whatever the person who sees them first thinks they look. So yeah, as the author, I get to bs a lot! ^^ Angels are such a wonderful thing to work with. Oh, here's the list: Uriel - looks like Peej-kun (black short hair, medium skin); Raphael - looks like Jessi-chan (very pale skin with darker brown hair in short straight cut); Raguel - looks like Candy (pale/light skin with a red pixie cut); Michael - looks sort of like a mix between my online friend/idol Batzy and me (pale/light skin with auburnish brown hair in a wavy medium length cut [almost to it's shoulders]); Sariel - looks like Jasmine-chan or C.C. (darker skin with black hair, loose down her back); Gabriel - looks like Dani-sama (blonde hair, long down her back, with pale/light skin); and Remiel - looks like Evie-kun (blonde short hair, medium skin). I took the names from a different site then I got most of the information, but I just like these names better because its more variety. Tell me what you think, eh?
I can't think of anything else. I have to make an icon for the Cheif Delphi forums sometime soon. *shrugs* I'll get around to it soon maybe. Nokomi's next gift is due the 11th, so I have to get that done, and I STILL haven't dolled a Christmas gift for everyone! @_@ I'll figure out something to do.
Wade is over at Camo's right now with Jeshua. ;_; I'm all alone... blah... But that's okay, I'm too busy to be worried about it, lol.
Well, that is it for now I think...

Quote from my current life:
"The Engrish and Histo- ....did I just say Engrish?" - Me to Dad

New dolls/Stuff from me:
Candy's 16th Birthday Gift

I'm very happy with how this turned out! She loved it too, so I think it was a success. The lyrics are the litteral translation of Hikari (the song Simple and Clean came from).
Michael, from my new Hellsing (hopeful) fan fiction/rpg

See, he looks more like Batzy than me! This was just a doodle, not really what he will end up looking like. He'll look a tad more boyish (I hope!)
Nokomi's Secret "Muffin" (Santa) gift on WTM

No clue how she likes it yet!
[ insert name here ] from Naia, for the FFXX contest

Read my D.Art version of it
Batzy, for her contest.

I won second place! ^///^ Go me!

New Stuff not done by me:
Sham'e, by Batzy

It was an aution prize I won (I won an Arcules/Sham'e couple too!) I think it is absolutely gorgeous!!! Not, the original idea, but I like it better almost.

Stupid

2005-11-24T18:51:00.000-08:00

Wish my parents understood me. Dammit, I hate being bipolar. No one understands me.

Happy Turkey Day!

2005-11-24T16:45:00.000-08:00

I hate this holiday. I hate it worse than Christmas and Valentine's Day combined! Most because I have to deal with my redneck family and their horrid cooking. Granny deep-fried the turkey and injected it with salt...or something stupid like that, making it taste like raw SPAM. Then when I decided to eat the potatoes, I decided the turkey wasn't too terribly bad. I mean, HOW CAN YOU RUIN A POTATO!?!?! *sigh* I'll never understand that side of the family anyways. The entire supper was spent listening to them gab about "dirty mexicans laying in front of my buggy in Wal*Mart" and "only knowing english when you have a gun pointed at them". I wanted to throw up and yell at them. "C.C.'s not like that, damn Americans!" But alas, I would have been shot.
I was thinking earlier about some of the girls in my life, and, being bi, if I would date them or not. So here is my rant for the day: girls I would date, and those I wouldn't. Now, I only gave this addy out to four people: Wade, Matt, Evan, and P.J. and all of them know I am bi and know these girls. They also know I will hurt them if they tell a soul about this. ^^
Girls:
Jessi-chan - YES. I've already promised Jessi that I woudl date her if Wade and I broke up, and while I think she was just joking about it, I wasn't. I seriously love that girl to death. She is so pretty and I feel like I can really relate to her as much as I can Wade. She is so beautiful on the inside and sometimes I wish I could just tell her what she means to me, but oh well, I couldn't.
Dani-sama - YES. Sure, why not? I love Dani-sama almost as much as I love Jessi-chan an we get along so well that I think it would be a lot of fun. She's gorgeous (even if she doesn't believe me) on the inside as well as out.
LeCe - NO. I've seen too much of how she treats her boyfriends to even go close to her in a relationship sense.
Steph - YES. I have a great connection with Steph, she is very very close to my heart. I would date her, even though I doubt we could be more than friends.
C.C. - NO. C.C. is like a sister to me, I couldn't and wouldn't date her.
Roxy-sama - NO. Roxy is so awesome, don't get me wrong! It's just I don't think I could be what she wanted in a relationship.
Cher - YES. Cher and I haven't talked in a long time, but when we did we had a great connection. It'd never work though, she loves her boyfriend too much.
Megie - YES. ^////^ Megie is so awesome. I love her to death! She and I really have a close connection.
Hailey - NO. Just no...
I can't think of anyone else. If I do, I'll post it in a later post.
Quote of my Current Life:
"Well, how is dad?"
"Okay..."
"Wait 30 minutes and tell me how the weather is and then we'll decide."
"Oh, the weather is fine outside!"
"...I meant Dad, mom! It's a metaphor!!!"
- Ben and his mom, tonight
New Stuff:
Jessi-chan, the bear

I didn't make this, just so you know. It belongs to Batzy, I just ordered it.
The layout

Comment on it when you get a chance, I didn't make the image, but still.
Avatar of A.J. and Me

DiTR Minion's Sig

Adoptable only if you join DiTR for me (link to the side)
In progress:
Dolls - Shamé in Wedding attire; More Rubé dolls; More Sarge dolls; Cailey
Stories - Black Diamonds, a Star Wars SIN story about Shamé and Arcules getting married; Star Wars SIN, the actual story, but I'm just typing it up for now; Halskette 3, Shamé and Rubé's story continued...I'll probably make Candy do this chapter, because I have writer's block; Angel Hunter, an experiment with characters based off of real people I know (so far only Dani-sama, me, and Jessi-chan's chara's designs have been pulled off); The Anti-Force, a story about a group on Naboo trying to destroy Jedi and how the dark jedi and the light jedi have to work together.
Drawings - Shamé and Rubé; Shamé and Padmé; Shamé solo shot; all the Naberrie family: Padmé to Shamé; Cailey and Arcules (from The Hunted)

First post

2005-11-23T18:24:00.000-08:00

Blah, I hate this layout. I'll change it a.s.a.p. I promise; I just have to get around to finding/making/requesting a layout I like and remembering the codes I used on my last blog. I just wanted to make a post so I have something to look at while I edit the layout.
Today was boring... my grandparents were supposed to take me with them shopping, but they never did, so yeah. Nothing much happened around this house, other than I found FAKE and some other manga in the playroom. It took me a year, but I'm happy I found them. 70 bucks lost doesn't let you sleep well at night.
I got another random plot idea for my Star Wars fandom, but I don't know if I'll ever get around to writing it. I think it is a great idea, but I doubt anyone else would be able to follow it. Besides that, over the break I am typing up Star Wars Sin so that everyone I know can read it without me having to ship it to Wisconsin. ...yes, the only person I know is in Wisconsin. Well, the only person that would want to read it (and the only reason she would is because I would force her).
My new rpg character on The Hunted is pretty cool; I've been rping her a lot, but I am probably gonna join another rpg on DiTR (link lower) tonight. I hope it all works out, because the rpg sounds awesome! Well, wrapping it up now:
New Stuff:
Rubé and Shamé signatures for DiTR